Words Of Assurance

God has spoken to me through the years to lead me to more and more assurance. The first thought that touched me was "My grace is sufficient for thee, for My strength has been made perfect in weakness." Truly grace is found as we walk in God's will. We can be in the middle as "In everything give thanks for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you." Truly as we give thanks we find ourselves walking with God. The second thought came as I realized I was double minded and unstable in all my ways. I had found myself trusting in my salvation experience and my poetry to prove my salvation. God showed me that I couldn't trust in this. but to simply Trust God. I simply remind myself to Trust Christ alone. The next thought of assurance came as a small voice said, "John I love you no matter what and I will worship God no matter what." This has been a blessed thought to ponder. My last thought of assurance after I was having a feeling of condemnation. God allowed me simply think of Jesus' Words as the Cross, "It is finished." Truly I can trust these words no matter what I am feeling. Truly looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the Cross, despising the shame and is set down at the right hand of God the Father.

Merciful God

I shared my poetry and testimony on my birthday. I struggled greatly , but was able to share about my Dad leaving us and being in heaven. If you can feel unsaved I certainly felt it. Even though I was speaking Truth, my heart was panicking. The next day didn't know where to go from here. God says it is not him that runs or him that wills, but God that shows mercy. I asked God if He was willing to show me mercy. The next day I found My God to be merciful. God is good and ready to forgive and plenteous in mercy unto all that call upon Him. I left God with the decision to share mercy to me. Now I know now that I have a Merciful God. Truly this is the knowledge I have longed for. God's mercy endures forever. Nothing can separate me from the love of God in Christ Jesus. Truly God is merciful to sinners. When you truly need God's mercy, God shows up.

A Still Small Voice

After several months of fighting panic attacks. God gave me an answer. The panic attacks came from fear and great anxiety. There were times I had to simply fight the attacks with Scripture. I would dwell on that Christ loved me and gave himself for me. I also had to wait on the Lord for strength. I also had to take anxiety pills. Some of the attacks were so hard and powerful that on a scale of one to ten they were ten's. I had to also apply James Chapter one to my situation. To count it all joy when you fall into divers temptations and to ask for wisdom. My battle came to a head while visiting a friend in a Care facility. The Enemy sowed a seed that maybe I was really working for my salvation and that was the reason I was doing what I was doing. I went to the car to battle once again. I called on Jesus, if He was there please help me. After a few minutes of battling, I heard a still small voice. God said, "I love you no matter what." This was God's perfect love that could cast out my fears. Truly at anytime I can think about God's voice telling me I am loved. My response was to love My Savior back. Presenting myself as a living sacrifice. Coming to Jesus and putting His yoke upon me. I can now find rest for my soul as Jesus' burden is becoming light. Truly I can dwell on Jesus' love, the Cross, Resurrection, and Ascension. Truly Jesus intercedes for me to the Father and I know a Love that motivates me to love God back. God loves me no matter what and He deserves worship no matter what. John the Poet