Make Me A Blessing

As my assurance grows fuller, I am having not to focus my energy on my doubting. I lead the church service at the County Home. My message was about blessings such as found in the Sermon on the Mount. I thought of being a blessing. I still work through panic attacks. I've learned to face, focus, and work through them. I am encouraged as I don't need the medicine to meet these attacks. I can now put my energy into being a blessing. There's a thought that as we focus on a goal, a part of us will try and make it true. I've decided for my goal to be "Glorify God, enjoy Him forevermore. To touch lives and keep myself pure." My homepage shares the new poem on this thought.

Blessings from the Poet

Promises

In looking back at my poetry, I realized it is truth that has lead me to assurance. It was about promises that I knew and received from God. My faith has brought me to a spiritual rest and trust. This gift of trust is necessary to touch lives with confidence and conviction. God is good and ready to forgive and plenteous in mercy unto all that call upon Him. Hebrews Chapter four describes the blessedness of this faith rest and I have not fallen short of it. I am confident I can come to Christ with boldness of faith. He also is blessing me with answer to prayer. It is a delight to call upon Him for the good of others. Seeing God at work is truly great riches.
I used to define success by money received. I now know true riches is answered prayer, as lives are changed for God's glory. Prosperity has nothing to do with money. The church at Smyrna was rich even though it had great poverty. Sometimes being chastened by persecution can lead to knowing great riches. For the trying of our faith worketh patience, let patience have it's perfect work. That we may be entire and wanting nothing. Truly I am rich as I dwell on God's goodness to me.

Revival?

Does God offer a possibility for revival before the second coming of Jesus? I think the opening for a small revival to take place is possible. In the period of time for the churches of Revelation, we find the church of Laodicea. The church is lukewarm and one of compromise. Could this be the Era we are in now.
Jesus asks when He comes back will He find faith on the earth? I believe Jesus does want to find us with faith. That is why He makes this offer to the Laodicea church.

"Behold I stand at the door and knock: if any man hears My voice, and open the door, I will come in to him and will sup with him, and he with me."

Are you hearing this verse today, I am. We are called to be over comers by faith. I want to be a person that is found waiting for His coming. Do You? God declares a crown as a reward for those who love His appearing. He's knocking. Will you listen for Him?

God promises as we pray in secret, He will reward us openly. Will you pray for your friends to grow? What greater reward then our children walking in Truth.

I'm encouraged as I see friends delivered from drugs. Renewed seeking for sexual purity. My own deliverance from double mindedness and friends doing daily Bible study.

Revival starts with our individual desire for our Savior. He that hath my commandments and keepeth them He it is that loveth Me, and I will love Him and manifest Myself to him. What is one of God's greatest commandment?

Jesus says, "You believe in God, believe also in Me. In my Father's house there is many mansions, behold I go to prepare a place for you, for where I am there will you be also."

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With God all things are possible.

God Bless,

John The Poet

No Confidence

I will put no trust in the flesh. In my deliverance from double mindedness, it's amazing I no longer look at my gifts for assurance. I also no longer look at my salvation experience. My trust in Jesus is full and complete. God is good. My trust in Him is in the here and now. Another related subject is God showing up with my counselor experience at Special camp. How it is related? It is related to the freedom I had from panic attacks. With all the stress of ministering 24/5 for the campers. Truly this was amazing. Truly I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. It was tough by Friday and I was running on fumes, but God showed up even then. It was a good and fulfilling experience. It was a joy to minister Christ's love in all ways. Truly the way to assist Special campers was kindness and being a servant. It's good to be back home, though. I'm trying to get back in a grove and to find the best way to use my time.

A side note.
I am now moving to:

John Brobst
4830 Ford Ave N.W.
Cedar Rapids, IA 52405

Faith and Deliverance

After my deliverance from double mindedness, I can look upon my Savior with a full faith. For I trust in Christ and His love. I can trust in Christ's Word and His Cross. Truly this assurance is a great gift from my Lord. May I go forth in boldness of faith. May I share the name and face of my God, the Lord Jesus Christ. Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith.

Romans 10:4 "For Christ is the end of the law of righteousness to everyone that believes."

"Behold old things have passed away, all things have become new."

"Greater is He that is in us, then he that is in the world."

"Blessings and honor, wisdom and power unto the Ancient of days."

"Every knee shall bow and every tongue confess that Jesus is Lord to the glory of God the Father."

Doubts Answered

After a long period of doubt, I discovered that some of my faith was hindered by legalism. I had heard of the term, but never applied it totally to myself. I came to a point where I was totally hindered by being double minded. My faith was not a complete faith. I asked my Pastor for counsel. He recognized what I was doing wrong. I was dwelling on my salvation experience to prove I was saved. I was also trying to prove my faith to myself because of my poetry I had written. Both things were good, but I made the mistake of looking to these for these things for assurance. My Pastor revealed to me that double mindedness came from the desire to try trusting something other than Christ. He simply said, "Trust Christ." The two words stuck in my mind and heart. Don't trust your salvation experience and don't trust your gift of poetry. Don't trust your part in salvation. Just Trust Christ. As I worked through this I let go of the things I was using to prove To myself my salvation. Again the answer was to trust Christ and what he had done. The solution was found when I called on God for deliverance. Again the words rang true "Trust Christ." The next day lead me to not only trust Christ, but also trust Christ's love. I found myself complete as this last step was applied. I don't understand the spiritual ramifications of this "I just know to trust Christ"

Letting Go

After some panic attacks, I found myself fighting through my anxieties. I came to a conclusion that instead of worrying, maybe I would let go trying so hard. Truly I found myself trying to be perfect. God made me aware that some of the things I was doing were not necessarily bad, but I was being lead in a strange way to be perfect. These things were not bad, but as added things to a do list. Things which were preferences and not convictions. The first step was to assume that I was truly saved. As I work through this I found a key to stop working for perfection and even salvation. There is a verse that talks about this, "But to him that works not, but believeth on Him that justifieth the ungodly his faith is counted for righteousness." Truly salvation states by looking at Christ death for us and through faith we find a resting place. As I stopped putting energy into my fears, I found myself not working. I found that I could tell God I would trust Him for his will for me. I would remember to not work, but let go into God's hands.